In My Mind. Flocking. I really love Margaret Atwood.

I’ve done a few drawings inspired by Amanda Palmer’s “In My Mind

In my mind
In a future five years from now
I’m a hundred and twenty pounds
And I never get hungover
Because I will be the picture of discipline
Never minding what state I’m in
And I will be someone I admire
And it’s funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I’ve just forgotten how
To see that I’m not exactly the person that I thought I’d be.
And in my mind
In the far-away here-and-now
I’ve become in-control somehow
And I never lose my wallet
Because I will be the picture of discipline
Never fucking-up anything
And I’ll be a good defensive driver
And it’s funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I’ve just forgotten how
To see that I’ll never be the person that I thought I’d be.
And in my mind
When I’m old I am beautiful,
Planting tulips and vegetables
Which I will mindfully watch over
Not like me now
I’m so busy with everything
That I don’t look at anything
But I’m sure I’ll look when I am older
And it’s funny how I imagined
That I could be that person now
That that’s not what I want
But that’s what I wanted
That I’d be giving up somehow
How strange to see
That I don’t want to be the person that I want to be.
And in my mind
I imagine so many things
Things that aren’t really happening
And when they put me in the ground
I’ll start pounding the lid,
Saying, “I haven’t finished yet,
I still have a tattoo to get,
It says, ‘I’m living in the moment'”.
And it’s funny how I imagined
That I could win this win-less fight
Maybe it isn’t all that funny
That I’ve been fighting all my life
But maybe I have to think it’s funny
If I want to live before I die and maybe it’s funniest of all
To think I’ll die before I actually see that I am exactly the person that I want to be.
Fuck yes.
I am exactly the person that I want to be.
It is about self-identity. About being unsure of your self-identity. About not knowing if you are you or what you is. I listen to it when I am confused or frustrated. A reminder that we don’t have to know what we are.
This first one is just an initial sketch. I still need to colour and prettify it.
Wanna flock with me?
Our soft materials workshop was all about flocking. For those of you, like me, who have no idea what flocking is; it is like that velvety stuff you run your fingers over on wallpaper or giftbags and things like that.
Here are some images of my samples:
The process of flocking is pretty simple. You apply acrylic glue to a surface (any surface. the beauty of flocking is that you can flock anything. i wanted to flock my hair but we had an unfortunate accident with the flocking machine before I could), making sure your design is thickly coated – thin bits of glue wont attract the material. Set up the flocking machine, by pouring the colour and thickness of fibres you want into the plastic dish, add the mesh, clip the crocodile clips onto the sheet, turn that baby on making sure not to electrocute yourself by only touching the silver handle, shake the material out whilst pressing the on button and you will see the wee fibres stand up and attract to the glued surface (I don’t know how it works! something to do with electricity). Wait about an hour for glue to dry and then brush off excess fibres. Your flocked piece is awesomely finished!
I fucking love Margaret Atwood.
My book art (apologies for the bad photo quality)
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